We used to revel in the "new perfect" that was our life. Raising a beautiful girl with multiple special needs showed us that "perfect" is all in our minds. Emily's life was perfect. It was happy, it was brilliant. She was social, outgoing, silly, and ticklish. Now we are learning to get through life without our "Perfect Peanut" in it. This is most certainly NOT a new kind of perfect.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Rough days
Emily has had two very rough days in a row. Emily has had a ton of coughing/gagging episodes that go on and on for hours. We have tried all her PRN meds and nothing helps. The only thing that helps a little is giving her some heavy narcotics to sort of knock her out. Mthere was a big team meeting last night about Emily. GI tells me the episodes are pulmonology, pulmonology tells me they are GI. I don't care what they are, or whose field they are, but she is miserable. It's not okay.
Thankfully the Comfort Care Palliative Team here is amazing and standing p for Emily's comfort. Me are starting her on morphine for these episodes today. She has had an adverse reaction to morphine before, but it was 6 years ago. We are going to try a tiny dose first and see how she does.
They are asking us some heavy questions. How far do we want them to go with her. What do we want if she codes. If she stops breathing. If her heart stops. If she needs a ventilator.
It is surreal. Parents shouldn't have to answer questions like this about their 8 year olds. :(.
Please keep Emily, and our family, in your thoughts.
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I don't know if its just my computer, but I can't read the whole post. If I click on the title, it does nothing, so all I can see is the first few lines!
I had the same problem...some weird format...Clicked on "snapshot" format and got blog in blue! Prayers for Miss Emily from Ct..Stay strong mama.
I had to answer those questions about my 5 year old. You're absolutely right ~ it IS surreal and it isn't something any parent should have to do. I am so so so so sad that you're having to answer them for Emily. (((( hugs )))) and prayers.
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